Can i be decipline enuff for this?

Another day burnt. I will need some proper English from know on.
I need some management over my time between DA and normal time.
Woke up early, played da whole day and went to jk house to test his new wireless internet.
Failure and went back to take laptop as i got to rush home to continue quest.
Saw this girl whom i might be going after this winter, he is hanging with some familiar guys and hmmm thoughts came all over me.
Thinking back when i was at Sec 4 May to around july, is my heart cleaned of sins yet? I often has this doubt.
Then i went to YISHUN MRT to get my bicycle as i went for "supper" and took bus home the day before.
Cycle to basketball court to see them still playing.
Long wanted to play see-saw and sway a little. Got the roller coaster feeling and was thinking how come there's no such fear when i was young.
Stopped a while later and feel like vomiting.
Something is too wrong in me, getting weaker.
Am i getting old? sigh*
Sleepy tomorrow 8am lesson..
Time to sleep..
cheers..